I’ve been having a hard time. Every day there are times when I feel in complete despair – some days the sadness is much more profound than others. Every day I ache for escapism. I feel like I don’t want to live, but at the same time, I want so badly to experience life & explore the world.

I weep. I pray for help. I pray for peace of mind. I used to pray I would die.

It feels impossible to explain how I feel – it is literally beyond words. You have to live, breathe, & experience it to really know; to fully understand.

And even then, I don’t understand it. It seems like it’s not even humanly possible to have such heartache day in and day out.

I love you all so, so much. Keep going & let’s not give up, deal?

xo
Mariah