So, this now my official blog site! 🙂

Don’t judge me though; I’m not crazy computer/technology savvy, so it probably won’t look super nice just yet. Haha.

I had a big, long list of names I was considering for my blog, because this one is like a legit site that I have to pay for, haha. So, I wanted a name that was fairly easy to remember, gave an idea of what my blog focuses on, and heck, I wanted one that sounded cool. 😉

The name I chose, “removing this mask”, is actually a line from a writing (I don’t know if I dare call my writings “poems”) I did when I was in high school. This was about the time when my depression was really starting to manifest itself. Although, I remember feeling incredibly sad from a very young age — back to my elementary years.

I’ve felt very suicidal at points in my life, and in classes where I had all my work done or while all the other kids goofed around and talked, I would sit and write in my notebook. It’d just write and write and write. It was as if getting my feelings down on to paper somehow helped me. I truly think that writing, or other forms of ‘art’, are incredibly therapeutic and can help you work through and begin to understand what you’re feeling.

I can’t remember if I showed my mother, or if she found my writings, but I will always remember seeing her cry as she read some of the things I had written. It gave her a look into my ‘world’ and what was going on in my mind — a glimpse into my internal battlefield. I think it was very hard for her to read those things coming from her daughter. I’m sure no parent would ever want their child to feel that way.

In fact, I sometimes think…the way I feel about myself…I would never wish that upon anyone. Ever.

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Anyway, I’ve transferred all my posts from my old blog over to this one, so those are here for you to read as well, in case you’re interested. 🙂
Love you all! xo